alright guys: confession
a really have been going crazy these past few days. thursday night i had a huge panic attack/mental breakdown to my really close friend and my boyfriend and my roommate. it was really hard and after that i sorta stopped working out (i did on thursday but not fri, sat, sun, or mon). i also ate a bunch of junk food last night, like too much to even post about cause i’m ashamed. i’ve been straying from the diet, not horribly, but definitely. it could be a lot worse but i don’t really know what else to do. stress is a huge part and yeah, it’s life. i’m trying to not feel guilty or bad about any of this and just move on and start doing better. maybe i was setting my goals too high and pushing myself too hard. i literally was eating no junk food and eating food that i sometimes didn’t enjoy and all of that. it’s a lot harder than i thought it was going to be. i was going strong for like 2 or 3 weeks and then hit a patch. but i’m still here and still trying, i promise.
lunch: turkey bacon on a wheat wrap with lettuce and pepperjack cheese. i dipped this in ranch occasionally but got it on the side so i didn’t use as much! also got pretzels on the side, but only ate a few of them
dinner: caesar salad that was 230 calories. mini “tray” of slice green apples and caramel dip, cheddar cheese chunks - 140 calories.
snacks: i ate a small amount of kettle corn and banana chips during a movie
- salad - romaine lettuce, spinach leaves, oil/vinegar, 2 hard boiled eggs, carrots, chick peas, shredded cheese, broken up pita chips
- fruit - honey dew, pineapple, cantaloupe
- bagel - cinnamon raisin, 1 half peanut butter 1 half cream cheese
i got really busy last night and didn’t update this. also went on a late night adventure ;) with my boyfriend (i’m talking 4 am) and got fast food for the first time in WEEKS. mcdonalds. 1 mcchicken and 1 mcdouble. totally cheated, but i was munchin’ hard… and it was such a good time. i know :(